Long Week

What a week, its been a crazy up and down with work, friendship and my relationship.

Lady R is constantly on my mind still and it’s almost a month that we been together. I’m at a loss for words, normally woman don’t tend to keep my attention for long yet lady R is getting it right, and I don’t mind that one bit.

I briefly saw Lady R on Wednesday for coffee and I found it so hard to drag myself away from Lady R. There is so much I want to tell Lady R and yet I don’t want to just blurt it out at once. I want to shout from the roof tops how I feel about Lady R and yet I can’t due to the BEFH.

I went to Alfa yesterday and a friend of mine that I have not seen for a while is the dealer principal for the Alfa dealership I walked into. We had coffee and caught up on some news and I asked him about the new Brera (http://www.alfaromeo.co.za/brera/). As luck might have it he had one in stock. It’s only launched in January and I absolutely like the car. He arranged that I could use the car for a day and I took that opportunity today.

What an amazing car, good looks, very agile and holds well on the road. The Engine roar is also nice to hear as you put your foot down. I was sad taking the car back and getting in my old BMW. The clutch felt like it had 80Kg behind it every time I had to push my cars clutch in.

I am so tempted to order one but I have to look at buying a house. And buying a Brera will dent the money I have to spend on a house. Well at R380k for the baby version and R480k for the big brute. It will dent most people’s bank balance.

-= blue monday =-

Well the weekend came to a amazing close with the day spent with Lady R, Every minute I am with her I see something different, something that intrigues me something that I like about her. It can be the smallest thing. I wonder how Lady R managed to steel my heart, how she got past my defenses, I told my self after my fiancé that I wont let myself get hurt again. Here I am putting my heart out to her, and some how I just know she won’t hurt my heart, some how I know I can trust her with the most precious part of me.

Lady R entrusted me with her heart last night , well it was meant for me but her BEFH managed to get the text message instead of me, which caused a lot of issues for Lady R. I wish I can wave a magic wand and let all this trouble disappear. But it’s always best to deal with trouble so it does not come back again.

I hope I can see Lady R this week, I have not felt this way about a woman since meeting my fiancé actually this feeling is a lot stronger.

Work was the usual fun and games, with half a server delivered and components missing and preparation for the migration of an email server to a new email server. The usual was expected of me to pull rabbits out of my behind and get HP to deliver parts over night.

I tried my best to keep focused on work, but I find my mind wondering to Lady R wondering what she is up to. Wonder if I’ll see her this week. Even if it’s for 30 minutes.

Company Function

Well, the day started yesterday with some shopping for new clothes, Lady R was in the shopping mall to and we ran into each other every now and then, seeing we don't shop at the same shops. was a mad rush to get everything sorted for the function and Lady R also had to get ready. I picked Lady R up, who looked stunning, and off we went. Got to the functions a bit to early and decided to go sit in hout bay and talk a bit. Things seemed so perfect. Little did i know. The night went very well and all my Work mates loves Lady R. The We went home and all of a sudden Lady R changed. She went cold she went distant, things just changed so suddenly, I was labeled as "Your Just Like any Other Guy", and that just confused me. She walked out confused and started to walk home, I ran after and gave her a lift home. since then I have not slept. I keep wondering why, what have I done, what have I not done. Has karma decided that I don't deserve a woman like Lady R in my life? All I know is it hurts allot, and I did not expect this to happen. All i long for right now is closure, to know what I done wrong, can I fix it? can I learn from it and not do it again?. Any one out there?... Advice will be greatly appreciated.

.::. Update .::.

Lady R came around at 9 ish this morning. We had a l-o-n-g discussion about what brought the actions of last night on. I learn t something, something that I will N-E-V-E-R forget and N-E-V-E-R do again and I mean E-V-E-R .

I also proved yet again. that honesty, trust and friendship is very very important in any relationship. So is communication and if you talk and do it honestly and trust each other things will be fine.

Lady R has taken my heart on the worse roller coaster ride I have ever had in my life. And its only made my feelings stronger for her

-= Why Is the Day Dragging =-

Well today dragged, it dragged so much, I ran around the office to sort out a server that had to be prepared for a clients Email migration. The rest of the day was paper work paper work oh and more paper work.

The guy that employed me resigned today. I’m worried, he was one of the good guys, I’m going to miss him quite a bit as he was very relaxed and managed to get things done. Now its my turn, All his responsibilities has been passed onto me over night, I have to manage the junior tech’s and have to baby sit the guys who just cant do there work.

Lady R and I are still going strong, She is going through a tuff time, SingleMom, you know what you going through with your BEFH, well Lady R is almost in the same boat well almost minus the Kids that is, But Lady R knows I am there for her.

Lady r asked me to go with her to meet her folks, and normally I will cringe at the idea of meeting a woman’s parents, some how I look forward to meeting her parents.

I went to the movies with some friends of mine tonight and watched faith the potatoes, It’s my Christian friends and what I like about them is they don’t force there religion on you. They accept people as they are, hmmm just like I accept people in my life and around me as they are. They’re all dying to meet Lady R, they even trying to arrange a braai (barbeque) just so they can meet her, I am not worried at all, I know they will accept her for her and not judge her at all.

I find myself counting the hours till I see Lady R again, its weird, No woman made me feel that ever, and I mean ever. Normally I’ll play the see you when I see you kind of guy. But this time I just cant help it.

Work is going to start to wind down from next week so I been looking at what I’m going to do, Lady R is off to France for the Christmas and I have to stay and work, Its going to be pure torture the 3 weeks with out Lady R, so I got to keep myself occupied, with work and friends.

Lifes Funny Ways

I got my laptop today, and spent most of the day setting it up the way I want it to be.

Lady R and I are getting on fine and things are slowly getting more involved. I think after yesterdays chat she realizes that I am looking for long term and that I have the patience and understand.

I noticed something strange and I chatted to one of my colleges about it today on the way to a client. How come when you meet a woman and start getting involved all of a sudden the woman in your past pops out the wood work?. The woman you were interested in and never got a signal back from. The woman that you thought might be interested in you. I noticed this today as I started receiving mails and text messages from woman I met briefly in my time I where single.

Ok I am still single now, but my mind is focused on Lady R, I also noticed that no other woman no matter how attractive she looks or how funny she comes across does it for me any more. My mind is entirely focused on Lady R when it comes to woman.

On a funny note, one of the guys in the office got caught masturbating in the toilets. He was stupid enough to stand in front of the urinal and masturbate. One of the other guys walked in on him. The masturbator promptly resigned with immediate effect. I think the guy that walked in on the masturbator must be scared for life. I know I will also resign if I was caught. Mind you I am not that stupid. Stuff like that you do at home, preferably behind closed windows and doors.

It seems I am the guy to co ordinate company moves for IT equipment, We managed to get a move done for a client last week and it went relatively smooth. So smooth the client invited us to a lunch at one of the nicest restaurants in Constantia.

The Worry Hits

Today was a up and down roller coaster ride. The kind that you just don't expect the sudden right turn from. You think its going left and then it turns right and does a spiral down.
I got a text message from Lady R this morning, IT said “I got some horrible news for you, please read your email when you alone”. This text alone made my heart go down to my shoes while driving.

I got to a client and Mr M was there, Seeing my laptop is DOA ( I'm getting a nice new DUO core Laptop today or tomorrow. Cant wait...) I jumped on MR M's laptop and got my mail.
Yes it was a Dear John Letter. It was not a good sight. I sorted out the clients minor issue which he made a massive issue out of. And jumped on the email. I could not accept it. Lady R is amazing, She makes me feel what I have not felt since my ex fiance. I had to fight for her.
After a couple of emails and sms's she got the picture that I am interested in her, that I want her in my life for her. Lady R came over this evening and we chatted over coffee about the issues at hand.
I am always one to stand by my friends, and specially by the person I care a lot for. Lady R knows now that I will be there for her through her ruff times she is going through now and any in the future.
I am still wondering why I met Lady R and I don't know why she is falling for me. I know why I am falling for her. Falling for her cause she has that certain smile, that out look on life that not many people have. The personality also just does it as well. Don't get me wrong Lady R is a very attractive woman and MR M can vouch for that. But to me looks are just a bonus. Looks fade as you get older and I much rather be spending my old age with some one who I enjoy being with.
Ok enough of the sappy stuff. I am getting more and more interested in HP Switching and Cisco equipment, I think I'll start to google on some reading material.

Mixed Monday

I woke up with a worry in the back of my mind today, Worry that I might of messed things up between Lady R and me. I normally get a email from Lady R in the mornings, Today I got nothing, So the devil started whispering in my ear. Whispering things that I scared Lady R off that I might of showed to much interest in her.

Well the Devil was wrong. Lady R was just very very busy, and she did get back to me after 12:00. My heart went from shoe level to past my chest in about 4 seconds after i saw a email from Lady R.

I managed to chuck myself into the deep end today. Got involved in HP Procurve managing. For those not in the know. This is where you configure your network in more detail. So 5 espresso coffee's later. Allot of cursing (behind closed doors) and pulling what little hair I have left out. I managed to become a HP procurve Guru in 5 hours time. Now I got VLANS and Trunks running a dream and the clients database is about 5 times faster than it was. For this I got my 5th compliment from my boss as the client reported that I done a good job.

Hey I don't suck up so don't get me wrong. I just take my work seriously. After all Living in Ireland taught me one thing. Work hard, Play Hard.

Sunday, Lovely Sunday

Well today was a scorcher in Cape Town, 35 Degrees (97F, for those none Celsius folks)

I woke up and had a quick shower, then off to woolies and other places to get everything sorted for the picnic, Lady R had no idea. I packed the picnic basket and ran off to get some semi sweet white wine, some goodies from the best store, Woolies, and had everything sorted.. Well everything. I had to get a bottle opener from my mums place. Yes when renovating my place I moved 90% of my stuff to my mums.

It was amazing seeing Lady R again, She was waiting for me by the time I got to my flat. Seeing its such a hot day I gave Lady R my undercover parking spot and we headed off to our picnic location. Lady R thought we heading to the beach and boy was she wrong and very pleasantly surprised. We found a very shady tree and set up picnic, And started to catch up on the weeks doings.

Lady R's kisses still make me feel something that I have not felt in a while, Hell being around her makes me feel things that I thought I lost with my fiance.

All in all a very good weekend.

My floors are done. I have moved into my bedroom and I have started to make the lounge look like something. There is allot to be done still but it looks like something.. And you know what Its all mine. I can proudly say its mine.

IT Girl has seemed to of started a new life and I run into her on occasion online, I just hope IT Girl and I can stay friends.

On a sadder note.. I managed to drop my laptop off a desk and it seems to of died a horrible death. I hope to get a new one on Monday or Tuesday. I have Internet with drawl symptoms. So bad that I resurrected a old pc I had in my cupboard just to get online. I know its very sad.

The Visitor and a Hectic Week

Well the past 2 days has been a real mare.
Work kept me so busy. I worked through Thursday night till 4:00 in the morning. I managed get home to a latched front door. After some acrobatics from the stair well to the balcony on the 3rd floor of my building , I managed to knock on the lounge window to wake up my flat mate.

Oohh my Flat mate And I are room mates now, Seeing they busy redoing the 2 bedrooms floors . The lawyers letter and the phone call to there contractor seemed to of helped as they now managed to glue the tiles in the bedrooms with out a mess on the walls and today when I got home after work the first coat was on the floor. I hope tomorrow the floors are done and I can be back to normal.

I was going to see Lady R on Thursday night, but work kept me going; now here is a woman of understanding. One simple call to say I am working late and I might be popping in later but if I work to late then I won’t wake her and there was no moaning or guilt trips form her side. We both just manage to give each other some space and understanding.

Have you ever met a person and just knew, Knew this is a person that you want to have a quality relationship with, With age I noticed that as a guy in my younger days there were woman you met that you just know were for a casual thing nothing more nothing really meaning full. Then there’s that person you meet and you just know that this is a person that you want to get to know better, then with the first kiss you feel that old feeling. The jelly knees, the racing heart beat the sweaty palms. Even the kiss lingers on when you close your eyes days later. And yet you don’t have that desire to see how far you can push the kiss. To see of you can get under that persons clothes. You just know it will happen later and when it happens you know it’s going to be so much more special.

Well that’s my feeling I get with Lady R. I even feel my outlook has changes, I don’t even notice other woman in shopping malls and clubs. If I do I find myself saying to myself. “ Lady R is so much better than that person” And all cause I got confidence to of kept chatting to Lady R at that steers that one night.

I made a plan to go to a picnic at one of the wine farms on Sunday. I hope the weather holds up, I managed to get HP to replace a laptop that they managed to blow up when it was sent for a repair. And the client is so happy with a new laptop now that he has given me a exclusive picnic voucher with white and red wine, cheese and a whole bag of goodies. Plus a nice picnic spot on there wine farm. I have not told Lady R about this. All I said was keep Sunday open, I’d love to spend it with you.

I love suspense in a romance and I think it is an important feature in any relationship, but wait… I have not asked Lady R for a date so to say or to go steady with me. Mind you I have never asked a Woman out so to say. The relationship just started. I never had a
“Anniversary” because I never know when we started going out. It just happens most of the time.

On another note. I managed to get visitor number ONE this week, Michelle, Thanks for hitting my page. I have perused yours and will be from now on. From what I have read we seem to think the same.

Wicked Wednesday

Today started off with alot of work.I have not seen my office the entire day. its been a mad house as every one in IT is needing things done now so they can take leave.

I caught up with MR M at a client, He managed to take DJ C home at 3 this morning but he made her sleep on the sofa. They friends now at least and i dont think they will ever date.

I on the other hand walked arround today with a big grin. Lady R was on my mind, even though I have not let her know. We did chat a bit today and there is something in her voice. Something I have not heard in any womans voice for a long time.

Lady R also proved to me last night that even a girl with out a tounge piercing can kiss amazingly. I think Lady R and I might be going some where but I am not counting any chickens just yet.

The Tuesday That Never Wanted To End

Today I started off with a short 30 minutes in the office for email and paper work. After that all hell broke loose. Everything site one of the junior IT tech’s touched turned into a severity 1 call, Which meant I had to go on site, Fix the issue and write a report on the matter. I think this Junior Tech has a lot going he can get far if he just stops the gung hoe way he is doing things at the moment.

Two days ago I introduced MR M , one of my work buddies, to a friend of mine, DJ C, DJ C is a friend of mine who DJ’s a lot and also has a day job. They seem to get on very well on msn as I left them to chat while I finished my work.

Tonight MR M and I happened to work at a client close to where DJ C was working, so we popped down stairs to the bar DJ C was at to get a drink and catch up with her.

DJ C and I met a while back, and became good friends, we joke with each other and rip each other off quite often and we both know its not serious.

Lady R Emailed me today and we bounced some emails during work which ended up as a coffee invite this evening. I had to rush from DJ C’s bar to town to meet Lady R. Lady R has gone through a lot of the same issues as I have and we seem to see eye to eye. DJ C invited me to the comedy evening at the bar and I asked Lady R if she’d like to go. I followed Lady R to her place and waited for Lady R to get changed. I don’t know why she got changed, probably a woman thing. I relaxed on the Sofa and watched some DSTV, while Lady R Showered and changed clothes.

It was the first time any of my friends met Lady R and Mr M, who is normally the boisterous guy in the pack actually became the gentleman of note, Not only because of Lady R but DJ C became more at ease seeing there was another woman in the group and this made MR M more relaxed it seemed.

I am so confused with IT Girl, I am actually worried about her, she is a amazing person and I enjoy her company but lately I have been putting in a lot of extra time at work and when I have time its normal in the late hours of the evening. IT girl has kids and I don’t want to disturb or disrupt them at all, Plus other personal issues on IT girls side makes me just want to back off for now till they settled. Hey I am a lover not a fighter and right now I love my job and I love the challenges that it brings but I also love having Me time.

IT Girl seen me at my worst when my Ex took 90% of my stuff and I happened to call her to let her know how I feel. I know I am a coward for not being there for IT Girl right now but I don’t want to be a cause to a fight and I just don’t have the energy at the moment.

On a lighter note. My lawyer gave the contractor a nice letter and all of a sudden he turned into the best contractor ever, I have given him a list of issues and list of stolen goods and he is replacing them as well as my floors looks amazing I am so impressed with them. All the pain suffering and anger seems to be worth it.

I realized today that karma is alive and well. I have treated people like I want to be treated in the past 8 months and I have been open and to the point with people I have been in contact with. And karma is slowly repaying the deeds I have done. I am working for an amazing company, my company I have started is taking shape and I am meeting people that I actually want to be surrounded with. I’m also getting recognition for work I have done, which never happened with my previous company.

I hope Mr M and DJ C hook up, they both had a heavy past and all I could do is introduce them and leave it to that There future is now in there own hands, I am not one to play match maker as it inevitably never works.

The Longest Monday

Today started off at 6:30, had to get Bra G to work on time and I had to get to work to try to catch up on some unresolved issues.

For some reason some one in the office has caught on that I know Cisco and Cisco equipment. So now I am the run to guy. The guy that can pull rabbits out of his behind and fix issues that will take any salted Cisco guy a good hour to figure out.

To top it off I looked like a tourist today. I walked into the office looking like a red lobster. This after a weekend in sun, the first proper sun for the summer and many, many more to come.

I got home this evening after a long, long day (11:45PM) to see the first coat of varnish on my wooden floors. I must say I was close to ripping the contractors head off but seeing the results it seems all worth it in the end.

Now to see what dreams I have from sleeping with the fumes of the varnish.

Sunday With Friends

Yesterday was an unusual busy Sunday, I had to get up at 8:00 to pick up a friend at 9:00 and stop for some alcohol on the way. Then rush to Gordons Bay to help a friend setup for his braai. Well I managed to get myself a slight sun tan, well I am tender today and the shower this morning warned me that I must try to stay out the sun today. I caught up with J online, A very odd friend of mine from kommetjie, She is in her early 40’s, has 2 teenaged daughters and a very down to earth, hippy kind of mom. J is very relaxed and down to earth, the kind of person that you can just let your hair down and chat to with out worrying of being judged. I met J online as well. It All started when she emailed me about my dating profile, Yes I am on a dating site and only because meeting woman in Cape Town, South Africa is not as easy as Europe, According to J my profile was very toxic and needed some change. Well I listened to J and changed my profile and a lot more positive people started approaching me. Since then J and I have been friends although we have never met.

A good friend of mine, Bra G, parked off at my place last night. He is one of the most laid back guys I know, never a worry in the world and if he has a worry he surely does not show it. He works just as hard as I do, if not harder. He is the kind of guy that will share even his last bit of food with a friend. Bra G and I met in a weird way a while back, since then we been good friends.

Confusion

I have been thinking about why woman cant be open and to the point sometimes. I find it very refreshing to know where I stand in a relationship. I some times find myself wondering is this woman is interested or is she just being nice. Being nice sometimes does confuse us guys.

I met IT Girl 3 months ago and we been friends and a bit more than friends but IT girl made it clear that due to her circumstances in life that we can not have more than just a friendship.

well I am always open and honest and was going to tell IT girl About Lady R once I knew where things were heading. IT girl found out about Lady R and some how thought that Lady R and I were getting involved.

I'm only getting to know Lady R now and I can not say where it will be going from here. I always take it day by day. Lady R and I chatted a bit today and I can see where she wants to go in life. If I fit in that plans no one knows . Only time can tell.

As for now, now I am going to get hold of Mr G and go have some drinks and play some pool. An 3rd persons insight to life is always good, especialy if he has been through the same issues in life

Lazy Saturday

Last night I got a Text message from Lady R inviting me to breakfast. I told her that we saposed to be hiking up lions head, but for her I'll make a exception.

We met at the Radison hotel and as luck might have it a good friend of mine is working there as the retuarant manager. A short bearkfast turned into a all morning event. With breakfast and alot of chatting about life and family and friends. We decided that seeing its such a nice morning we should be going to the beach, So Lady R dropped me off at my flat and I changed into more suitable shorts and a T shirt. Lady R also went home to change quickly. Well as quick as a woman can change. I tink we all know a woman takes her time in changing. With deciding on what shoes to wear and make up for the beach and the likes.

Walking on the beach made me realise that Lady R is looking for the same things in life as I am looking for, and thats stability, trust, friendship and honesty in a relationship. Its only been my second "date" with Lady R, One cant really call it a date as we hardly know each other yet. Althought I noticed alot of funny cute quirks this morning. The quirks that one can live with. The good thing is she does not smoke and she hardly drinks. Lady R is more homely than the avarage 24 year old and has ambition in life as well.

On a lighter note. I had to give my dog some flea treatment this morning. He was one very upset husky but he knows its good for him its just a matter of seducing him which is easy once you know his weak spots.

All in all a good morning and start to the afternoon. Tomorrow I have a friends braai to go to, I dont know Lady R well enough yet to ask her to join me and I dont want to let a load of friends loose on her just yet. My friends are mainly from Germany and UK and Some south African guys but they all the best, craziest croud of people I know.

TGIF

Well day 4 of flat renovations and still no finished floors.

Today was one of those hectic days, the days where you run your behind off to keep clients happy. As you might have guessed by now I am a technical account manager and I have been appointed 5 large clients. To keep them all happy is always a up hill battle and every once in a while I get it right keep them all happy.

In between all this I had to run to the importers to get a band new AMD 4600+ X2 for my baby at home. Boy does it make a difference my favorite game , Battlefield 2 just loads that bit faster and it means I can get that one or 2 extra sniping rounds in.

Tomorrow my flat mate and I are taking a hike up Lions head. I hope she does not push me off the edge as she has been through a lot of torture this week with the flat being redone and all.

Down and Up day

Mood: beyond Livid
State of mind: Numbed

Today started off with day 3 of Flat renovations.
Day one they lifted every loose wooden tile up and then they started gluing it with some black tar. These monkeys seem to get more tar on my walls than under the wood where it’s supposed to be. Got home to a seriously messed up kitchen, which was redone last week and a even more messed up bathroom. These yahoo’s went and used my bath mats as there personal towels. An towel is even missing. They seem to think that my flat is there personal domain. They even managed to break my toilet.

Well tomorrow is the last day for them to finish with my floors. I am just hoping that all the pains I am experiencing now will be worth it once the floors are laminated and polished.

I also managed to get my car back today after BMW decided to replace my turbo for the 4th time, This is after I threatened newspaper action and calling the head office in Munchen, Luckily I done work for BMW Mottorad Munchen in the past and I know some very good people there still.

Now my baby is going like a rocket. I was suitably impressed with the performance as I got kicked back in my seat as I pulled out of bmw’s workshop.

I went to my mums today and saw my boy again, for those of you who done know, my boy is a 2 year old Siberian husky. He is my pride and joy. Like folks feel over there kids so I feel over my boy.

And on a better note. I went to canal walk, a local shopping centre, to do some shopping and some retail therapy, luckily the gun shop was closed. I went for a bite to eat at a burger take away and while I stood there deciding on a burger or a steak roll a nice young lady came to queue behind me. She politely asked if I was in the queue and I said yes but I have not decided yet and so she can go in front of me. She noticed the company logo I work for on my shirt and asked me hardware or software. I was a bit shocked normally a woman won’t speak to a guy in South Africa. It’s the Guys job to chat to a woman first. I told her I mainly do Software and High level hardware. Turns out she used to be in It and moved to HR for another company. We placed our orders and chatted while we waited for the orders. She got hers first as she settled on a burger, and told me she is going to sit down and eat and I am welcome to join her. I got my steak roll and went to sit down with her. Turns out we have a lot in common and she stays in the same area as me.

My quick in and out of the shopping mall turned out to be a 3 hour long experience. We exchanged numbers and email addresses, and being the guy I am I done what my mom taught me. Walk a lady to her car in a deserted parking lot. She offered to take me to my car which was on the other side of the mall. I declined first and she insisted. Well I am never a guy to deny a lady her wish. We chatted some more in her car on the way to mine. And she suggested we get breakfast some time. Which of course agreed to.

So started a new friendship with a person I have met out of the blue. For further reference I’ll call this person Lady R.

Tomorrow is Friday and I hope to God that my floors will be done. My nose is closed due to the dust and my throught is sore from the swallowing of wooden dust.

Distant Memories

Waking up this morning and standing in the shower I found my self thinking, thinking about the past about what could have been and about what could be. Eight years ago, Eight years ago I was engaged and looked forward to married life and having my own picket fenced house. Then everything changed. I found myself single and standing in front of a door to a morgue. Two days later I sold everything I owned and bought an open season ticket to Ireland. All I knew was my grandad was from Ireland, Cork to be exact. I had to go find my routes and find myself to be myself again, had to find me. So my journey began. I found myself in a country that I did not know and amongst people I did not know.

Then I think to today and how all that was the past has changed me. I am more work focused and have been for the past seven years. I guess life does have its round about swings.

About 3 months ago I met a very interesting woman. Very patient and also work driven, as luck might have it she is in IT as well. And things have been going at a slow enough pace. I got to the age where fast dating just does not work. The age where you realize it’s about quality not quantity and quality time is always better then a lot of short spent time together. So for now its one day at a time and just let it flow. After all nothing good is worth rushing,

-= New beginnings =-

Well, here is a start of a new adventure. A lot has happened in the past and I for one has learnt a lot from the past. You got to be pretty stupid not to learn from your past especial from your mistakes.