A Very Sad Day

This afternoon Mr C told me that one of my ex's was in a car accident on Sunday and that she is in hospital in a critical state. Mr C just told me that Ianette passed away at 19:30 on 28th of February 2007 in a Hospital in Bloem.

Ianette and I came a long way; She and I dated for a while and had very fond memories, Although her folks never liked me much. They did accept me though. Ianette taught me allot of things in life. And I fondly remember our trip to East London as a Group and dinner at Ianette’s house in stellenbosch, with everyone just pitching in.

Our brake up was one of the worst I had and we did not speak to each other for a while. Six months ago, she got my number from Mr C and rang me up. I was very hesitant to talk to her but eventually i went to Paarl to meet her for coffee. Today I am glad I did, glad she and I made peace and became friends.

If this has thought me one thing it is that you should never part in a bad way, and most of all Life is too short, we never know when our number is up. We should not waste time.

Lady R, I miss you tonight and I wanted to share this sad moment in my life with you. We don’t know how much time is left for us so let’s not waste the time we got with each other.

Crazy Weekend

The weekend was one crazy weekend. Started with the new company I work for swapping a digit in my bank account number so some other lucky person got my salary for a weekend. Luckily the previous company paid me my last weeks salary so i could survive the weekend. Sat. night Lady R, Court-Jester, Lady E and I went out to dinner and to hit the town a bit. Dinner went well. Sort of well, accept I managed to get it right to interrupt Lady R every time, How I managed that I don't know. Then we went to Cubanna in Edward street, very afrikaans and just not the same vibe as the one in green point. Now green point well. Lady R and I managed to walk all the way from green point to oranjazight while having a long heated discussion about everything. Allot was said and Allot was not meant to be said and was only aimed at hurting each other. In the end of the day we resolved some issues. I think there is allot on both sides that we need to cover and need to get in the open. But where to start. I don't want to make Lady R run and I don't want her to think I'll run because the only running I'll do is towards her. I think Court-jester and Lady E things I am nuts, nuts to love a woman this much, But hey Love is blind and this is the kind of love that I been looking for, the one that's unconditional not matter what happened in our past. Its in the past we got to just accept it. Court-jester likes Lady E but I don't think the feelings are the same so Court-Jester being a nice guy he is backed off and accepted there is only friendship there. Well guys and Gals The week started hectic with allot of planning and allot of projects coming down the line. I have managed to sort out allot of new things and managed to teach myself linksys vpn tunneling. So for now I am here and I am not leaving the country just yet, well not with Lady R on my side that is. So still thanks to the people reading and giving comments. I know I don't post your comments because I reply to them in person. Maybe I should post some but I tend to run out of time.

Another Week Gone

Well another week gone, Worked my behind off and Also passed my first HP Exam.
Yep cant believe it. Studied a bit for it but its all logic in the end of the day.

The week went by quietly, hardly hearing from Lady R, Cant wait to see Lady R though.

I managed to setup some really nice new toys today. A Linksys VPN router. It took me 2 days to figure the whole thing out but now that I understand it, Its easy to setup. I also spent some time in the office today and had to leave before a smacked some one with a Cisco Router. These guys where trying to sort out a large cisco WAN solution and where making it 100 times more complicated than it really is. There routes where elaborate and made no sense to me, It was worth a laugh afterwards though.

I decided to hold off on the car for now, I'm still looking for something small and practical yet with some speed if I need speed.

This weekend is relaxing time, sorting out the flat and sorting out my PC.

Which Reminds me, My new laptop is on order and its a beast of a machine for a very good price. Hey maybe I can sell my big old PC I have on my desk here and keep the laptop. Its something to think about.

Forever In Love With You

I love you so deeply,
I love you so much,
I love the sound of your voice
And the way that we touch.
I love your warm smile
And your kind, thoughtful way,
The joy that you bring
To my life every day.
I love you today
As I have from the start,
And I'll love you forever
With all of my heart.

Training, Fighting and Loving

Well this week was a busy one with HP Bade Training behind me and 18 points down towards my HP AIS certification. Valentines day went uneventful with one card from Lady R and me not being able to see Lady R for Valentines day, but then again i believe that if you love some one as much as I love Lady R then every day should be Valentines day with that person. You should be treating each other special every day and not just once a year.

I spent a whole week with out a car and its very frustrating. Luckily my car was ready on Friday afternoon and I rushed to go pick up my car and get it to Audi who evaluated my car and gave me a offer. Now I got to consider it. Seeing I am buying a house and need to look at more quality living versus nice driving. To me Quality Living is higher on the scale. So I am looking at the C2 and some other cars that's still a nice drive but not as financially bounding as the Audi I want.

Lady R Finally in told me via Email how she feels about me, just before she left for her weekend away with some friends. I thought I was the only one in the relationship that felt that way but evidently I was mistaken, Now to me actions speaks louder than words.

Well lets see what this coming week holds. I'm going to be at 2 large clients 90% of the week, seeing I am now pinned as the high level server and network infrastructure guy.

Pre Valentines Day

Well what a day. Lady R met my Mum this evening and my Mum likes Lady R allot more, Allot more than expected. I was so afraid that things wont go well but it did in the end. I think I was even more nervous than Lady R. In the end It went well.

I must admit I was a bit stressed out when I got back from work today. Seeing Lady R helped me relax a bit but knowing my mum is on her way made me stress a bit more.

My adopted brother and his Girlfriend was here as well today and his girlfriend is scary. I see my adopted brother probably once every year or so as he lives in Bloemfontein now. He has gotten a bit round now and seems to of stopped exercising, but hey its his decision, he does look happy with his girlfriend though. She seems to look after him and he seems happy. So I am glad for him.

What shocked me was my mums words in the kitchen when we made tea " She is a very nice girl, you two look good together and she has a very nice personality very friendly, I hope this is it this time." All I could answer is well mum I hope so to, I really really do. This girl showed me a part of me that I though was dead since V passed away, before I left SA for Ireland and she has shown me parts of me that I thought never existed.

Well my mum and I have a very open relationship, yes some times very fiery but I still love my mum to bits. we have healthy heated discussions and in the end we apologise to each other for the to much heat.

Weekend

I had the most amazing Saturday night, with Lady R and her best friend. Court Jester was there as well and it was allot of fun. With me ordering 4 shooters which turned out to be 6 per order which turned out to be 24 shooters. So the evening started. Lady R and her friend started toying with Court Jester and by the end of the night Court Jester was so frustrated and convinced I'm going home with Lady R and her best friend. Mean time the only woman I ever want is Lady R.

I spent the Sunday recovering from a very woozy stomach and started working on my company web site. While doing that I was watching Win A Date with Tad Hamilton on the TV. The Bar Lady in the movie said some thing very true to me. " There is 3 kinds of love, Love, Love only lasts 2 weeks, True Love, True love lasts 2 years, Great Love, Great Love changes a person, great love lasts a life time." My love for Lady R is Great Love, its the love that changes your views in live, it will let you sacrifice everything just to be with that person. That's the love I have for Lady R.

I have not heard from Lady R since Sunday morning when she went to a friends fair well at the cricket, and it worries me, its not like Lady R to just go silent. It might be that she needed the sleep after our long Saturday night out and the cricket the next day.

All I know is that Lady R changed my life and this is the woman for me, after this weekend I am entirely convinced, not that I needed convincing in the first place.

I spent the Sunday thinking of my future, our future and I realised what a huge step I'm taking. Its scary for me but its exciting, exciting to know in my heart that I have met my match and that this is the woman I want to be with. Well lets see what the day holds today.

What A Week

Sorry for only writing now folks but this week was a yo-yo ride again.

To start off my Beloved BMW died on me and this was once to many. This after filling her up with diesel and she just would not start after that. 2 hours later the BMW guy came to look at the car and eventually towed it in. Two Days later the BMW garage only put the car on the work shop floor to be tested. In the mean time I am frustrated as I'm in the office not generating any money at all and BMW could not be cared less. They have there standard " sorry we have no courtesy vehicles left " card they play. This prompted me to phone Audi and see what they have to offer, So far so good. The sales guy has been very help full and has been doing everything in his power to accommodate me. And me being the techno geek I am, I went through every aspect of the car I want. From service intervals to costs to fuel economy to color the works. I thoroughly researched my vehicle on the net as well. Monday I hope to have word on my BMW so I can drive to Audi and get my new Audi. My first brand new out the box car with that brand new leather smell and that new 0 km's on the clock.

Exterior - Moro Blue

Interior - Black Leather with Alcantara middle ( AKA Swade )

I realised this week that the guys I work with now are great. Naweed, my boss, even lets me use his pickup truck for work purposes while my car is in the shop, and the guys help each other out with everything.. The previous company I was with had a attitude of " Dude, Its not my job" and they will certainly not give me a company car or a staff member wont let me use there car for work , that's for sure. Plus I'm going to be doing my HP Blade Certification this week coming, which puts me in a higher level and a higher marketable bracket in the company. The company encourages people to learn and to grow and to help others grow.

I also ran into Court-Jester in the company I work for now, Amazing enough him and I were friends about 2 years ago when we worked in the same office block, not the same company though. CJ has been very help full by getting me to and from work and also been helping him by pushing him more into the server side of the business.

Another thing I realised this week was that I have been dating girls in my past, girls that cant make up there mind, that cant stand by some one through there tuff times. Now Lady R on the other hand, well that's a real woman, My day can be the worst day ever and she some how manages to brighten up the day and make every problem seem a distant memory or a small issue. I know I have been doing the same for her and I will always be doing that.


Lady R and I have been seeing each other for almost over 4 months now, and the feelings I have for her has only gotten stronger and more intense. In my past I would of lost interest by now if it was any other woman. I think its because of the way she treats me and the way I treat her in return. The dynamics is just so much different to what I am used to, I'm not used to being treated the same way as I treat the partner in my life. This past 2 weeks I have been through some tuff times and I thank Lady R for being there for me for holding me in her arms and telling me its OK, for listening to me and giving me advice. This is what I call a true partner and woman.

I can only hope and pray to be even half the person to her as she is to me.

And So The Politics Begins

And so it begins, I moved to a different IT company last week and every one in my previous company is wondering what I am doing. The one guy even called a couple companies to find out if i do work there, obviously I am not working there and if I am I told the guys I work with that I am not working there if any one calls to find out.

The previous company I worked for turns out to be a big fight to get to the top and that means even stabbing people in the back just to get there. I for one is not game for this kind of behaviour and opted to go work for a company that has the same motto as me. " work hard, Play hard". This week has had interesting start with me been offered HP Blade training and also the opportunity to go to Germany again to go do my Siemens Blade certification as well.
its more into the higher levels that I want to go into and it also means working with higher level customers.

Out of all this mess I made a good friend and Mr B and I are seeing the same regarding a mutual friend who introduced us. This friend only seems to be around when he needs something from people and he seems to seek constant recognition from peers.

On a better note Lady R and I went shopping this after noon. I never expected it and it just happened and it felt right.. no awkward moments and just buying the basics.

So for now I am putting the previous company behind me and moving on, there is no use in looking into the past and wondering, what if i sucked up to the boss and done all the brown nosing. For one I am not a person to suck up for recognition and I am not one to give away friends or colleagues who entrusted me with personal information to gain the respect of my peers.

lets see what the week holds. I cant wait to see what amazing story will brew next out of my previous company I worked for.

Another Day

Today started off slow with the promise of my new sofa arriving. Well its was supposed to be here in the morning but it only arrived late afternoon. I had to rush home to open up for the guys and help them not to scratch my newly varnished floors.

Now I have to move the TV again to a much More central spot, which means moving my satellite TV as well.

My day was busy with clients I had to meet for my new company I am starting as well as other things that needed to be taken care of.

Looking back I am glad I walked away from the previous company, my stress levels are allot less and I feel more freedom now. The tension in the previous company was just to high with people constantly fighting for recognition and people stabbing other staff members in the back just to climb a ladder.

I am getting to old for that kind of games and want to find that happy medium where you get along with people you work with yet keep a professional level.

Lady R popped in this evening and she loves my new couch. Hey even I love it and it just just fits and I did not even measure it properly when I ordered it.

So for now the D date is 14 FEB to get the new company in action and running, ready for production and a new adventure.

After all Life is what you put into it.