A Grain of Sand

You have touched my soul
With your magical hands, and
Your fine loving spirit.
Your tenderness is a constant
Balm to my soul.
A soul that waited
With your soul - separated
By a continent.
We both lived lives of
'Quiet Desperation'
Until we met.
Now there is no waiting.
Nothing now feels desperate.
Nothing now is anxious, or empty.
There is no void anymore...
We have everything
To hope for, wish for,
And to live for in each other.
Because now our two lives
Are complete, and have become one.
We finally came home to each other,
And now we rejoice
In the peaceful love we share...
...'A Grain of Sand.'

Bank Fight Week and a Slow Weekend

decided to get hold of FNB yet again and find out about my other account there that I’d like to close. Turns out they made a mess of that one as well. So this week is fight with FNB week yet again.

I see Lady R less and less as it gets closer to her exams. It’s getting tuff but it’s only another couple more weeks. Apart from that Lady R is on my mind the whole time.

I ordered my PHP5 book from amazon.co.uk, It was only R250 online and R750 for the same book in South Africa. I hopeful will have the book on the 26th which will give me something to learn while Lady R is studying and It will also help me get my web site off the ground. I just can’t seem to find someone who is willing to assist us for now without charging the earth so I have to do it on my own.

Court-jester managed to damage his car this weekend; he drove into the back of his ex’s car out of all cars. Well that’s one way to try to get your ex back in your life.

I did not hear anything from Lady R today so I went to my mums’ place and played with Codi, We also went to fruit and veg. and got some ingredients to make a banana loaf. We got home and started to make some banana loaf and chatted a bit, I sometimes miss my mum but I like living on my own now. My mum and I get on allot better since I went overseas and came back to South Africa.

The guy who had a affair with my ex managed to show he either guts or he is very much in lack of a IQ, He gave my name as a reference for a job offer and the employment agency called me. I gave him a good rating on his IT skills but in the end i said I won’t employ him as he has bad morals. Well good luck to him and my ex, Lady R is by far, by miles a better person than my ex. In morals and social as well as in looks.

Feel Good Day

Yeah, you read it right. I walked into FNB and closed my account today. Man it feels good to get rid of them. And it feels even better to have less debt to worry about. Ok they are useless. It took them over a hour to figure out how to close a account, and it took me less than 5 minutes to walk to the other bank draw money and go back to FNB and close my account.

The main reason I moved was because of a woman called Coleen Castle, She managed to single hardly mess up my Cheque account as well as my Credit Card. So my Advice is If you see this woman anywhere in a FNB. RUN and RUN far, do not even let her touch your cards even.
Work has been dragging and I had to find things to keep me busy.

So I started learning PHP 5 and AJAX and getting my programming skills going again. I like PHP because you can program in modules and then plug them into each other.

Lady R has been very scarce but that’s due to her studies. I do miss Lady R but it’s worth the sacrifice. I just wish there is something I can do to give her more time to study so Lady R has a bit more time for other things.

Short Week.

Well the week started off great with a lazy Monday spent with Lady R. I went to see Lady R’s new flat for the first time on Monday, It’s a very nice place and it will look amazing once Lady R has finished decorating it. I just hope that once Lady R and I move into our own place that we can make our place half as nice looking.

Work wise I been caught up in so much paper work this week. I am trying to get all my sites documented and ready so I can start visiting sites and start recommending new stuff and upgrades.

I also started teaching myself php 5 as I got frustrated waiting for other people to help me out. I understand php4 but 5 is more Object Orientated and more used functions have been pre coded.

Lady R is simply amazing; the way she and I just get along and how we open to each other about everything in our lived and things that touch our lives. This is definitely the woman I can see myself grow old with, and I don’t mind how long it takes us to get there.

The week is almost over and lady R has allot of studying to catch up to, Lady R even suggested dropping her studies to be with me and I totally disagree with that. Lady R’s studies are as important to me as it is to her and I will support her through the studies no matter what.

The best weekend So far.

Lady R just impressed me and blown the wind out my sails so much this weekend. I needed to get my mum to the shops and Lady R and I wanted to go to she shops as well, Lady R did not hesitate to offer to go pick up my mum and take her along with us. Now normally my ex’s will have moaned if I even asked and will have tried a quilt trip or two. That alone tells me that Lady R accepts me and my family unconditionally, ooh and my mom loves Lady R to bits. Really enjoys her company and has already mentioned that I will be a fool to let Lady R walk out my life.

Well yesterday was my birthday, now I am officially off the calendar. Well I spent the day with Lady R, the best Birthday present ever. I took Lady R to a beach at a far off little town on the west coast and we just relaxed and chatted about things and walked on the beach. After that it was a quick trip back to civilization and to canal walk to pick up some cake and go to my mum’s place for coffee and cake. Codi was a beggar as usual with any food around, but he got warned and then he got placed outside for a cool off period. He knows very well that begging is not on and Mr B and my adopted brother also thought him not to beg.

Last night was amazing, we went to a restaurant on top of the Ritz hotel, this restaurant revolves very slowly and you can see the entire Cape Town from the top. The food was very good and the company was amazing. I could not have asked for a better birth day. I caught myself with a tear in my eye as I told Lady R how much she means to me and how special the day has been for me.

I remember my last birthday I had, I was 16, and we had a braai (barbeque) at my mum’s old house. Allot of my friends came around, well people I thought who were my friends, It was fun but I realised very soon that they just there for the food and the swimming pool. Since then I have been having a quiet birthday party on my own, some years even ignoring the fact that I am one more year older.

This year I want to get my own company off the ground, Lady R and I spoke about it and Mr K and I are busy on it, only now I am going to start taking it more serious and push things from my side a bit more. Lady R is great motivation and has some very good insight into things and life. One of the many reasons I love her to bits.

So all in all a good weekend. The more time I spend with Lady R the more I realise this is the woman I am supposed to be with, And I thanks the Lord every morning and night for the opportunity to be with Lady R, I am not very religious but I am very thankful for what I have and for who I can share my life with.

Amazing Weekend

Well it was a amazing weekend. I spent Friday night relaxing in front of my TV and catching up on some myth busters and other series that I watch. I was thinking of Lady R the whole time as she put in some midnight oil for her studies. I am so proud of her for studying and doing so good in her tests.

Saturday, well I spent Saturday playing maid. Cleaning the flat and doing the laundry. I even polished my wooden floors and cleaned out the bathroom. Yes I know it’s odd to see a man do that. I'll post pictures on request.

Saturday night was amazing. Lady R came over and we just plonked on my bed, put on a movie. In Pursuit Of Happiness, and vegged out with some Coke Light and some chips. It is just so amazing to feel so comfortable and so relaxed with a woman in my life again. I always used to be very cautious to what I say and do around woman. and for some reason Lady R, well Lady R, I have let my guard down, I have dropped my mask and just became me, and somehow I know lady R is ok with it. She is also letting go and just becoming herself. Well she has been for a while now. Just the evening spent with lady R doing simple things like watching a DVD made me realise how at home we feel with each other.

Today in a week’s time I am officially off the calendar, yes the big 32, it been bugging me but now that Lady R is in my life it seems ok for me to turn 32.
I keep getting dreams of a house, visions I’ll say, it’s based on a house design that I saw in franschoek, I can see the design in my head and I can walk through the rooms. This is the place I see myself building and living in. It has a amazing lounge and open plan kitchen, it has a swimming pool and a nice big back garden. The whole design is mapped in my head. I am so tempted to get hold of a architect buddy of mine and getting him to draw it up or at least tell me how much square meter land I need so I can start looking out for that land. Well we will have to see. If I do build this place it will be with lady R’s input. Ok she can decorate it as long as I can build it. Ok she can decorate all accept the spare room and the Entertainment area. Those two I’d love to keep in the man’s domain for a while longer.

I told myself before I turn 33 I am going to build this place and I am going to make a change in my life. Start doing something I have not done in a while and start focusing on my company we been struggling to get going. I know it all sounds like a get rich quick scheme but I don’t believe in those. That why it takes time. We are being very cautious and even been playing devil’s advocate with each other just to iron out all what ifs and how-to’s.

Well tomorrow is the start of another week. With documentation to be done for two sites and me sitting at one site looking at a Database which is seemingly healthy now. Please note I say seemingly.